http://abyssalstar.blue/ 2026-05-25T09:48:14+00:00 http://abyssalstar.blue/ http://abyssalstar.blue/lib/exe/fetch.php?media=wiki:logo.png text/html 2026-01-11T16:36:22+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) http://abyssalstar.blue/doku.php?id=2026posts:2026_journal:2026-01-01_realization&rev=1768149382&do=diff It took Xylia entire year to realized Xylia actually hate her/himself. Trying to keep moving forward and be workaholic is just way to get dopamine and be 'productive' hence not have to stay still and finally look at what is trying to catching up. Xylia doesn't recognized that thinking she is undeserving of people attention, love, money or kindness is a form of self hate. Not to mention thinking that she has not suffer or work hard enough to earn any of it or a right to ask for it and other shou… text/html 2026-04-22T18:38:53+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) http://abyssalstar.blue/doku.php?id=2026posts:2026_journal:2026-04-22_optimization_is_killing_my_enjoyment&rev=1776883133&do=diff Optimization is killing my enjoyment Let’s start with disclaimer. This is based on my personal experience and only apply to my personal art only. When I do commission I have like entirely different mindset and how I can handle work. ---------- Personal art is important for me. It’s a way for me to cope, venting out my vice, showcasing my idea and most importantly expressing myself. Therefore personal art is a way for me to enjoy being myself and I would like it strictly be that way as in othe… text/html 2026-05-17T13:24:46+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) http://abyssalstar.blue/doku.php?id=2026posts:2026_journal:2026-05-17_forgetful_and_logging_mess&rev=1779024286&do=diff Forgetful and logging mess Recently my friend and me playing a one... meme template? like about showing our favorite character that is in specific color tones. This one and yes this is mine (the fav characters, not the template itself!) I think very hard on who my favorite characters that fit with the colors. I think REALLY hard. I know it just a fun thing to do and not to take it seriously but I also will said I seriously can't remember many thing I have watch or read or like. IF not at all